Medication Mismanagement

I woke up today and didn’t take my medication. I realized I haven’t been appropriately taking them for a while now. Every day I acknowledge that I didn’t take them, and still don’t take them. My main excuse is that they make me nauseous and dizzy if I take them on an empty stomach, and working so early in the morning I don’t get to eat before going to work. I used to bring them to work and eat there, but a lot of times I’d completely forget. 

It does seem like when I have a good routine, my life is better, more organized, healthier. 

I’ve been stressed about so many little things lately; the color of my teeth, my back and forth battle with my skin, I can’t for the life of me decide on a new couch, what do I want my new bedroom to look like? Are all of these little things a sign that my life is actually going well? My credit card was paid off and then I guess the only finances I worry about are student loans (yay for being postponed!) and some medical bills. Medical bills frustrate me since my kidney doesn’t seem to want to get it’s shit together so that’s fun. 

Maybe this is time for me to make a big girl decision and put my mind first. The whole idea of focusing on my morning medication could even become something to set the tone for my entire day. I can try to squeeze something small to eat while I get ready. I tried breakfast drinks, but they seem to make me hungrier than I was when I started. Muffins? Should I try muffins? Maybe I’ll do that. Maybe I’ll start getting a little breakfast together the night before. All this to consistently take my medication. 

The truth is, I’ve felt fine without my meds, but I know it’s not the best for me. I definitely do get a little zany, albeit fun, but a little too much me without them. I also wonder if the inconsistency isn’t helping my skin too much. 

So today, Sunday April 16th I took my morning meds, and am going to take my evening meds as well. I started this day better than any other day, despite getting drunk last night. Woke up early, cleaned the kitchen, did some diy skin care and drank a nice ACV honey lemon cocktail. Isn’t apple cider vinegar the best? This will be a good day, and hopefully tomorrow will be better.